Sunday, May 26, 2019

Openings available in our online novel-writing class!


Hi folks,

We’re going to extend the beginning of the next session of our online novel-writing class to next Sunday, June 2. I had a really bad attack of the stomach flu last week, ending up very dehydrated and weak and it’s taken a bit more time than I would have thought it would to recover. I’m getting better, but still need a few days to get back closer to normal. So…

This will also allow those who are contemplating joining us a few extra days to do so.

For details, just read the blog post preceding this one which lays out everything you need to know about class. Basics are the cost of becoming a full class member for our ten-week session is $400. We also have another entrance into class as an auditor, where you sit in class with all of us—see everything we’re doing—but just like an auditorship in an on-ground college course, you don’t actively participate, and the fee for that is only $50. Believe me, that’s a bargain. I’ve had former auditors tell me things like they learned more about novel writing just by watching the class for ten weeks than they did in the entirety of their college experience or even their MFA experience. Plus, it’s the first place we go to when we need to fill vacancies—auditors always get the first shot at joining the class.

It’s very easy to join us. Just email me at butchedgerton@comcast.net and let me know you’re interested and if you have any questions, I’ll be happy to answer them. And, it doesn’t matter where you live—our students come to us from all over the world—from Europe, Asia, the U.S. and just about every country you can imagine. Time zones don’t matter.

Give me a shout!

Blue skies,
Les



Two of the many novelists who wrote their first books in our class--Maegan Beaumont and Linda Thompson. Both now superstars!

One of the texts our class is based on.

We leave politics at the door--all we're concerned with is doing everything we can to help get your novel published and published well.

Thursday, May 9, 2019

OPENINGS IN OUR NEXT CLASS


Hi folks,

Well, we’re just finishing up our final week on the current session of my online novel-writing class, “Les Edgerton’s Bootcamp for Writers,” and find ourselves a couple of openings. Our next session will begin on May 26 and consists of a ten-week session, with the probability of taking a week off sometime during the term to recharge batteries.

This is a call for new class members. Not sure how many openings we’ll have as we offer vacancies first to our auditors.

The basics are the course costs $400 and it’s limited to ten people. The $400 is nonrefundable, as if a person quits during the session it would be impossible to fill that vacancy. As this is my primary source of income, it would be detrimental for myself and my family. It’s very rare that anyone opts out once begun, however. In over five years, there have only been two.

We’ve had a remarkable history of success. Nearly three dozen writers over the past dozen years who has become a part of our class or whom I’ve coached privately has gone on to being legitimately published and/or secured a good literary agent. In fact, that is our only goal—to become legitimately published.

I try to warn people who are thinking of joining us, how tough the class is, but I know from past experience that even so forewarned, at least some are going to be in for a shock when they see that we really don’t hold hands, pat people on the back for minimum efforts, or overlook writing that doesn’t work. I’m not cruel (at least I don’t think so) nor are any of the oldtimers in class, but most new folks haven’t been exposed to a class like ours. The truth is, most writers who haven’t had a class like ours has been praised in other classes or most likely, has been in classes that use the “sandwich” method of teaching. You know—that deal where the teach applies a bit of praise, then a bit of criticism, and then a bit of praise. Well, that ain’t our shtick. Not even close. The comments we all provide on everyone’s work fit one definition only. They’re honest.
This isn’t to be mean or to act like we’re the only folks around who know what good writing is. Except… we do. I’m not aware of any other class out there with the kind of track record ours enjoys. Virtually every writer who stays the course with us ends up with a top agent and/or a book deal. That doesn’t happen in a single ten-week session. About the earliest anyone has earned an agent or book deal in our class has been about a year. And, that’s reasonable.
The thing is, our writers don’t expect things to be easy.


Some of our class meet up in 
Scottsdale to celebrate classmate Maegan Beaumont's first published novel.

I figured I’d let some of the class members give you their take on our class. They don’t hold back and they all have tough skins. They will all tell you the same thing. It isn’t a class for sissies or for those who need their hands held or lots of pats on the back. Becoming published is hard, hard work and isn’t an undertaking for sissies. To get there, our students know they have to put on their Big Boy and Big Girl pants and expect to work harder than they ever have in their lives—and to never, ever “settle” their standards of excellence.

From a student several years ago:
Hi ________. Since Les opened the floor for comments from the "class veterans" I'm chipping in with my two cents. I have a file cabinet filled with stuff I sent Les and then needed asbestos gloves to take the paper off the printer. When I started this journey, I'd never taken an English class past high school. (I was pre-med in college) I figured I love to read, so how hard can it be? Okay, quit laughing at me. Clearly, when I wrote my first version of my first novel, I had no idea about story structure, POV, any of that. I figured I'm pretty articulate and therefore I can write?
Les quickly set me straight. All of this is to point out that we've all been on the receiving end of Les' brutal honesty. I will find some of the comments he made on my work and post them but phrases like "throwing up in my mouth now" and "bury this so deep in the yard no one ever finds it" are seared into my brain and I don't have to look to find those!!! The point is, I took other classes before I met Les and the teachers were kind and gentle and never told me I sucked. If it weren't for Les, I'd still be churning out awful drivel that makes people want to throw up instead of trying not to throw up while I wait to see if my agent is able to sell my book. I would never have gotten an agent without Les. So hang in there. Listen to everything he says and if it doesn't make sense, ask away.

From another student:
The novel that I am currently trying to sell has been a work in progress for several years. The first time Les saw it he sent it back and told me to re-write the WHOLE thing!!! My character was a wimp. She sat back and let things happen to her. I argued a little, rewrote a little and then moved on to another book. After a year, I went back and reread it and saw the truth. It was awful. So I took a deep breath and started over. Page one. First sentence. Re-wrote the entire thing. It took a full year and then I revised it again. It's definitely a process. But once you get the inciting incident and the outline steps down pat, it's a whole lot easier. Trust me!!! And you'll never graduate completely. A few months ago, Les and I went head-to-head on one single passage. I was trying to be lazy and take the easy way out. He called me on it and I resubmitted three or four weeks in a row, revisions on the same passage. I was sure my classmates were so sick of it they were going to stick needles in their eyes rather than read it again! But in the end, the passage rocked!! So hang in there!!!! It'll get better. (Note: This novel sold and the writer is currently working on her fifth novel.)

Class members come from all over the globe. We’ve had students from the UK, Ireland, Taiwan, Spain, all parts of the U.S., Canada, Australia, Luxembourg and many other places. We work with writers in virtually every genre on the bookshelves.

The way class works is that the class is divided into two equal groups. We used to have just one group, but it got to be too much for many students. In the past, everybody in the class was required to read everybody else’s work each week and provide in-depth comments on everyone’s work. That meant they had to read nine other class members’ work and deliver intelligent commentary on each one. We’ve since evolved to a more manageable number where now each class member reads and delivers comments on just four other classmates’ work. I provide comments on everybody’s work and that’s why the class is limited to only ten. With ten writers, I can give each person the quality of time and analysis each deserves.

Each week begins on Sunday evening, when people can begin submitting their weekly pages from Sunday until Thursday. If it’s a new writer to the class, they are allowed to submit their first five pages of their novel, plus an outline which consists of five statements and a total of 15-20 words. Oldtimers in class call this “inciting incident hell.” If the outline isn’t working and their beginning doesn’t represent the inciting incident as provided in their outline, they are required to keep submitting each week until it does. Our feeling is if they haven’t thought through their novels sufficiently and provided a publishable novel structure (evidenced by the outline), then they most likely don’t have a novel ready to be written and to simply plunge ahead will almost invariably lead to an unfinished novel. We don’t want that.

Once they’ve been okayed for the beginning, from thereafter they can submit up to eight pages per week, along with the others in class.

Time zones don’t matter. Everybody’s work, including everyone’s comments and my own comments on each person’s work each week is posted on the class site and folks can go to it any time of the day or night. Class members can begin sending back their comments on each others’ in their group from Sunday through the following Sunday, when it begins again. Although, in practicality, most members send in their work each week on Wednesdays and Thursdays. It’s like being in an “on-ground” class in that everything said or done in class is seen by everybody.

We do have a chat function and people use it all the time, even though they’re in different time zones. One of the best things about this class is that we have lots of oldtimers who know from their own experience what works in a novel and what doesn’t and more importantly… why it works or doesn’t work. It’s like having a group of seven or eight other professionals helping you with your own novel. Probably at any given time in class, there will be four or five who already have had a novel or several published as a result of being in class, so it’s a really rarefied group. And, if you think that you couldn’t operate in a situation like this because you’re a beginner, that simply isn’t the case here at all. Nearly every single person in each class began just the way you did, as a rank beginner. And, they remember and they have complete empathy for your situation, if you’re a beginning writer.

It’s not a situation of simply saying, “This doesn’t work.” Myself and others in class will surely say that, but we then let you know why it didn’t work and give you solid suggestions on how to make it work. We collectively have a nurturing nature and all of us want the newcomer to succeed just about as badly as that writer wants to.

If you are still interested but still feel intimidated, I think if you simply look at how the class works, you’ll quickly see how you’ll fit in comfortably. Since we’ve got one week left in class, for anyone who would like to see up close and personal how we work as a class, I’d be delighted to give you auditor status for our last week. Besides class members, we also have an auditor function which works the same as it does in a “regular” college class. You’re admitted to class and can view every single thing we’re doing and the entire class session is archived and easy to access. Normally, the cost of auditing the class is $50, but for our last week, for those interested in simply getting a look at how we work, just email me at butchedgerton@comcast.net and let me know and I’ll have our class administrator, Holly, get you on board asap.

If you're interested but don't feel you're ready to begin writing your novel, we also offer the opportunity to audit class for $50.00. It works the same as auditing a regular college class on the ground. You sit in on the class and see everything we do--you just don't actively participate. It's a valuable experience as most of the things the writers in class experience are the same problems every writer faces. It's also a great way to see how we work and make entering a future session much more comfortable. Just contact me at butchedgerton@comcast.net and we'll get you on board. I've had countless participants tell me it was an extraordinary experience for them. One guy told me he'd learned more about how to structure and write a novel in just ten weeks of observing our class in action than he had during his MFA years. That's probably because we're teaching actual writing techniques that work and nothing on contemplating our navels...

I know there are no doubt a lot of questions you may have. Please feel free to contact me at any time and ask me anything you’d like.

From past experience, when we’ve had openings like this, they go quickly, so if you are interested, please get in touch, okay?

For those interested in such things, here are a few of my own qualifications to teach writing.

MFA in Writing from Vermont College
Taught writing for the UCLA Writer’s Program
Taught writing via Skype for the New York Writer’s Workshop
Writer-in-Residence for three years for the University of Toledo
Writer-in-Residence for one year for Trine University
Taught writing classes for St. Francis University
Taught writing classes for Phoenix College
Taught writing for Writer’s Digest Online Classes
Taught writing classes for Vermont College
Published 20+ books, including craft books on writing, novels, sports books, YA novel, historical nonfiction book, humor nonfiction, black comedy novel, noir, thrillers, memoir, literary and existential fiction.
Dozens of short stories published in such publications as The South Carolina Review, High Plains Literary Review, Aethlon, Flatmancrooked, Murdaland, Best American Mystery Stories and many others.
A lot of living… much of it as an outlaw…

Blue skies,
Les




Monday, April 8, 2019

MIRROR, MIRROR IS OUT TODAY

Hi folks,

Today my YA novel, Mirror, Mirror, is for sale at all the usual online outlets. This is a reissue with a new cover.

Order link: https://www.amazon.com/Mirror-Edgerton-ebook/dp/B07PMKLQLH/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=mirror%2Cmirror+by+les+edgerton&qid=1554737153&s=digital-text&sr=1-1-catcorr


Hope you enjoy the read. It was a lot of fun writing it for my daughter.

Blue skies,
Les

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

WRITER'S DIGEST DECLARING BANKRUPTCY!

Hi folks,

Got some bad news for me and probably a lot of others. Just got a letter yesterday notifying me that F&W Publications--the owners of Writer's Digest Books is declaring bankruptcy. I did my part--sold out all the copies of Finding Your Voice and enjoying strong sales, year after year, of Hooked. Don't know what I'm going to do about Hooked. Any suggestions would be greatly welcomed!

This is the second time this has happened to me with my books. The first was with the publisher who published my hairstyling and business books--I was enjoying regular annual royalties of about $5,000 a year when they went under. They sold, year after year. That really sucked. So will this!

When WR sold out of Finding Your Voice, my then-agent Chip MacGregor took my reverted rights and self-published it for me. It's done well since. I don't know what I'll do with Hooked--asked my current agent her advice if we should seek out a new publisher or do what I did with Voice.

This business! Wish I'd stayed with something steadier like playing the ponies...




Blue skies,
Les

Monday, March 18, 2019

MIRROR, MIRROR by Les Edgerton

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Tuesday, February 26, 2019

NEW BOOK FINISHED!


Hi folks,

A bit of news today… I finally finished a novella I’ve been working on for at least two years. I’m pretty sure my agent had given up on it (and me) months ago. I don’t believe in writer’s block—no, wait—I didn’t use to believe in writer’s block… but man!—this puppy has brought me to my knees. It’s based on the first short story I ever wrote and had published—Hard Times—which I wrote when I was 13 and which got a Pushcart Prize nomination and is included in my short story collection, Monday’s Meal. My agent, Svetlana Pironko, read it a long time ago and a few years ago told me it had haunted her ever since. She urged me to expand it into a novel, which I couldn’t quite do, but did manage to get it to novella length.

I had a good friend who I won’t name just yet, who’s just become head of a publishing company who’s been after me for a book—actually several books—and I was happy that Svetlana sent it to him yesterday. What’s really cool is that his company pays actual advances that are decent and their books end up on bookstore shelves and aren’t POD but actual books. I am trying to remain cool about this, but it’s hard.

And now, since I finally got through this book, I can begin writing three books I’ve put on hold that I’ve been itching to get to. This just feels like freedom!

Also, here’s some new reviews of Adrenaline Junkie. It’s been difficult getting reviews because I find myself at 76 fairly poor—SS and my online class are my only sources of income—which means I can’t afford to buy copies of my book and send them to folks for reviews and I suspect my friends are probably as poor as I am and can’t afford to buy a copy either, but thankfully, some have. I can’t begin to tell those people how much I appreciate it! Anyway, like the first ones, these folks seem to have liked it, too.




February 13, 2019
Format: Paperback
Reading Les Edgerton's Adrenaline Junkie is a lot like sitting in a bar listening to a guy tell you stories you refuse to believe are true (spoiler alert: The stories are true). His writing is straight-forward and wastes no time with filler. Frankly, he doesn't have the space to waste. Edgerton packs so much information into a single paragraph, it gets dizzying. The most valuable aspect of this book, however, is its demonstration of an unrestrained approach to life I fear is going to become a thing of the past as unbridled attempts at free living are deemed unacceptable. This is a document, a testimony to spending your brief life the way YOU want to, as opposed to the way the spineless masses would prefer.


January 20, 2019
Format: Kindle Edition
I've been a longtime fan of Les Edgerton's. Now, if you've ever read any of his work, you probably love all that gritty-yet-approachable narration, that "life on the edge" grimoire that you have a hard time putting down. This book is like the Genesis chapter of the Bible of all his other works. This is the memoir of the marauder, and Les writes it in a way that isn't painting heroes and antiheroes. Is it a little sexy? Sure, but it's as glorious as the big score is right before the flashing red-and-blues smack you in the face from your rear-view mirror.

I was graciously given an advanced copy. Membership has privileges, folks.



January 20, 2019
Format: Paperback
Adrenaline Junkie feels like an open and honest look back at one's life. Les is an interesting guy with great stories to tell



February 21, 2019
I'm a longtime fan of Les Edgerton's brilliant writing, and must say his pulp noir is so enthralling, when reading those I always felt I was riding shotgun alongside the characters, and long after completing said books, remembered lines and situations. Few authors can write with such depth, readers actually recall portions of the novels days/weeks/months after they've put down the book.

Adrenaline Junkie is not a tale, albeit reads like one. I put it on my Christmas list, and then caught a virus that took me out for a month until I finally felt like reading again. I've already Re-gifted my book to my sister, who grew up near Freeport, TX, and is the same age as Les. She will enjoy it as much as I did b/c we are southern ladies but we have Grit.

Unlike his amazing fiction (some based heavily on his life and some only lightly) Adrenaline Junkie pulled me in as I was curious about the real man writing such memorable and in-your-face books. If you've read The Rapist in which Edgerton takes readers into the mind of a psychopath, you wonder what influenced him. This memoir enlightened me on so many unanswered questions and there is nothing as refreshing to me as Edgerton's brutal honesty.

If you can't handle the good, bad, and ugly, surely you will appreciate the wit infused at necessary times to get you through this rather bizarre tale that shaped this author's unique life.



February 9, 2019
Les was a high school buddy of mine.
To read his life story left me stunned . Very few of us experience a calamity of deeds that Les reveals. Violent crime, a plethora of sex and romance. Then a simple act allows Les to redeem himself! Followed at the end by an uplifting revelation of who he really is and who was his real father!
Powerful reading!

Thanks, everyone! Your taking the time to write a review means the world to me.

Blue skies,
Les

Tuesday, January 22, 2019

BOOK PEOPLE INTERVIEW

Hi folks,

Here's a new interview by Scott Montgomery for the independent bookstore in Austin, Texas, Book People. For the complete interview go to  https://mysterypeople.wordpress.com/2019/01/22/married-for-the-material-an-interview-with-les-edgerton-about-his-memoir-adrenaline-junkie/







Blue skies,
Les

Sunday, January 20, 2019

GREAT REVIEWS!

Hi folks,

The reviews are beginning to come in! Here's the ones on Amazon (US) for Adrenaline Junkie and they're all fives. There are others on Amazon UK and other sites and so far, those are all fives as well. I appreciate every single one of them! Thank you!

Blue skies,
Les



Ger Crotty
5.0 out of 5 starsSelf willed freedom
December 14, 2018
Format: Kindle EditionVerified Purchase
Les Edgerton has a story to tell and it's not based on celebrity or fame. Instead it's fuelled by a self willed freedom, an Outlaw spirit and a whole lot of sex,drugs and some prison.
A rough childhood, adventures in the Navy,incarceration, hairdresser supremo, a whole lot women,drugs, mafia, prostitution, crazy killer women, family and maybe redemption ? What's not to like ?
All done with the technical grace and verve of a master storyteller

Janey Mack
5.0 out of 5 starsBOLD, BADASS AND BRAVE
January 16, 2019
Format: Kindle EditionVerified Purchase
A memoir that reads like a thriller. Brutally honest--heartbreakingly so at times, Les Ederton's unflinching story of self is a potent cocktail of adrenaline, self-actualization and humor.
A joy to read, and an honor to know the man himself.

PrintBoy
5.0 out of 5 starsA Fascinating Life!
January 19, 2019
Format: Kindle EditionVerified Purchase
Part time capsule, part confessional, this gripping memoir explores a fascinating life with unflinching honesty. Even those shocked by some of the deeds portrayed will be moved by the redemptive nature of the story.

Jack Getze
5.0 out of 5 starsFascinating Autobiography
November 23, 2018
Format: Paperback
Author, ex-criminal, and former prison inmate, Les Edgerton knows what makes all of us tick, and how, with not much of a shove, any one of us could end up behind bars. One of the most fascinating autobiographies you will ever read: from professional thief and pimp to award-winning author and teacher.” —Jack Getze, author of the award-winning Austin Carr Mysteries

Joseph Trigoboff
5.0 out of 5 starsA great work by a great author
January 5, 2019
Format: Kindle Edition
Les Edgerton’a memoir, “Adrenaline Junkie” is well-written, but what it is most of all is exciting. A terrific writer, who is also a teacher, Les has much to teach all of us, like myself, who live dull, predictable lives. A superbly written book, with all the excitement most of us could ask for. I can’t wait to read his next book. This one read like a James M. Cain Jim Thompson novel, and what’s even better is that all of it’s true.
To conclude: Brit Ekland? Brit Ekland?...Brit Ekland!!

Amazon Customer
5.0 out of 5 starsGritty, witty and real.
December 13, 2018
Format: Paperback
Ever get tired of living in the real world of everyday life with its endless grind and tedium? Ever want to just say the h... with it and cut loose? Les Edgerton has lived the life most guys just fantasize about. In a painfully honest book, Les lays it all bare, the good, the bad and the ugly of a rampant, hedonistic lifestyle. mercifully redeemed in the end by the love of a good woman.

Thursday, January 3, 2019

427 - Adrenaline Junkie by Les Edgerton

427 - Adrenaline Junkie by Les Edgerton: So this is the second time we're reviewing a memoir, which is always an odd proposition, because you're essentially agreeing to review someone's life. I think this turned out pretty nice, and we'll be interviewing Les in the coming weeks as well. Check it out and come back next week for another book - An Anonymous Girl by Greer Hendricks and Sarah Pekkanen.


Tuesday, January 1, 2019

MY "NEW" DAUGHTER!

Hi folks,

Just got some pictures of my "new" daughter Maria. She, her husband Joe and her daughter Nikole (my "new" granddaughter!) came down from South Bend to our home in Ft Wayne, and all my other kids were there as well--Britney, Sienna and Mike--along with their spouses and Mike's girlfriend
Victoria (who's like a daughter). It was a wonderful, wonderful day!

Here are some photos from that day.

Joe, Maria and Nikole

Me and all my kids--Britney, Sienna, (me) Mike and Maria

Mike and Victoria

Me and Mary

My grandson Logan (Sienna's son), Sienna, Britney, Mike, Maria and Nikole.

Sienna's boyfriend, Jamie (cut in half, alas!) Britney and her husband Ray.

Here's the story of how Maria came to find me:

A Thanksgiving Miracle

A woman who had been adopted 51 years ago was suffering from some physical problems and decided to submit a DNA sample to Ancestry.com in hopes of discovering who her birth parents were for the possibility of getting some of her health history for her and her daughter.

Maria’s search turned up my name and she Googled it and found out my memoir, Adrenaline Junkie, had just been released. She obtained a copy of it and read:

(From Adrenaline Junkie)

About a week later, a detective dropped by the apartment while Sherry was at work and told me I would probably walk on my charges, get probation like my lawyer’d said. He said I’d beat them. Then, he dropped a bomb on me. He said that even though I had a good chance of walking, they were going to go after Sherry and would make sure she got sentenced and did time at the Indiana Women’s Prison. He told me some things about her past that convinced me the judge probably would give her at least six months in the joint. The detective said the only way I could save her ass was to plead guilty and if I did that, they’d drop the charges completely on Sherry. He also spent a lot of time telling me what would happen to her down at the Women’s Prison in Indianapolis. Things other inmates would do to her with broomsticks, stuff like that.

This stuff got to me. Sherry was pregnant with our child and this guy kept telling me our kid would be born in prison and end up in foster homes being abused. Stuff like that.

I decided to plead guilty. The deal was, I would cop to one count of second-degree burglary and they would drop all the other burglary counts, plus all the other charges, the armed and strong-arm robberies. I might still get probation, I was told, but even if I didn’t, the most I’d get would be a two to five-year sentence or maybe a one-to-ten on the burglary thing.

That was a laugh. They weren’t even considering probation. As soon as I pled guilty, I was let back out on my original bond for two weeks while they did the presentence investigation and when I went back, I ended up getting a two to five and sent over to the jail to await paperwork and transportation to Pendleton Reformatory.

During the two-week period of the presentence investigation, Sherry and I got married and I made arrangements for my sister Jo and her husband Jim to take Sherry in during her pregnancy in case I got sent up. They lived in Lakeville and had two kids of their own, but both of them had big hearts and didn’t even hesitate when I asked them to take her in. Sherry hadn’t wanted to get married, but I didn’t want our kid being born a bastard.

Once I in Pendleton, Sherry visited a couple of times and then I didn’t see her any more. Her letters stopped as well. Normal shit for cons. Then, I got a letter from a lawyer asking my consent for a divorce. I wouldn’t sign it, and then my sister wrote me a letter saying they had had to kick Sherry out. It seems she was eight months pregnant and one day my brother-in-law Jim was painting the living room and she walked up to him on the ladder and grabbed his johnson and told him she wanted to screw him. He was a righteous dude and told her to get fucked and also to pack her shit and leave their house, which she did. Jo apologized over and over for having to kick her out, but I thought she showed remarkable forbearance, as did Jim, for what she’d done. I signed the divorce papers, but a few months later, I was served with some more papers asking if I’d  allow Sherry to put the baby (it was a girl) up for adoption. I refused to sign them, and wrote my sister to see if they would consider keeping the baby until I got out and could care for her. They immediately agreed—great sister!—but Sherry told all of us to get fucked and put the baby up for adoption anyway. It turned out they didn’t need my signature to do that, even though I was the legal father. You forfeit all such rights when you’re in prison. So our little girl was adopted and I’ve never seen or heard of her since.

When I got released a couple of years later, I went to a minister and told him my story. I wanted to know if he thought I should try to locate my daughter and get her back. He advised me to leave things the way they were. “She’s in a good home now,” he said. “Parents who love her and who she thinks of as her mom and dad. You can’t take care of her at this time, so leave her alone. She’s better off.” I saw he was right and did as he suggested. Many times since then I have wondered if I did the right thing. I also wonder if she’ll ever try to look me up. I hope her life turned out all right. I hope if she ever does look me up she’ll understand why I didn’t try to find her.
(End of excerpt)

She found my email address and mailed me this:

Hi, I recently did my Ancestry DNA and apparently we are closely related. I was adopted at birth. I have no biological family information, including medical history. I don’t know if you have or are willing to give me any information on who I am, but if you are I would appreciate it. Thank you. Signed, Maria

We emailed back and forth and soon established that she was my daughter. Then, she said something that meant the world to me:

I was so overjoyed to read in your book that you wanted me and that you tried everything to keep me. That it was in there, without your ever knowing if I would read it, means that it was how you really felt and that means more than if I had been told that my birth parents named me this or did this or that.

Maria

Since then, we’ve met in person, Maria has met her two sisters and her brother and we got to meet my granddaughter Nikole when they all came to visit yesterday.

I don’t know if I’ll ever make much from Adrenaline Junkie but I’ve already realized a miracle worth everything from its existence.

And that's our story. Kind of amazing, I think. What's also interesting is that Maria and I look alike and maybe more than any of my other kids!

Anyway, it's made this holiday season a very, very special one.

Blue skies,
Les